The beginning of the end …
It has begun. Most of my college mates will agree.
You were waiting to get here since the day you first stepped in. You wished the days would go by fast so that you can be there. You were always in awe of the people who were already there. And now, you are here… finally.
Being here is just what you expected it to be… and something more.
There is this carelessness everywhere. Just like the one you craved for since the first day. You don ‘t really give a damn about most of the things for which you would have spent sleepless nights earlier. There is also a certain sense of superiority creeping into you. You have made some life-long friends. Shared some unforgettable moments with special ones. You are probably having the best time of your life now. Just how you expected it to be. Just how you wanted it to be.
But at the back of your mind, you know it ‘s all going to end…and quite soon. Life in engineering is kinda cruel. It reaches a crescendo, and then …
It was bound to happen. You knew it would. But now that it is close, you suddenly start disliking being here. You now want to go back. You now want to live that life over and over again. Even if it means losing all the benefits of being here. You now want the ” We ‘ve still got lots of time” feeling again. Suddenly, you think of the time when you will say to your friends, “Dude, lets enjoy…One last time” .
It has just begun. The joy of being here heavily dominates the sadness of being here.
But no matter how hard you try to deny it. This is the beginning of the end. The end you always feared. The end that you will fear more, as it draws closer. The beginning that says, “Enjoy your college life while you still can” …
Brilliantly put…”It has just begun. The joy of being here heavily dominates the sadness of being here.”
Very true..nice first post
Thank you !
Tears,really.
U dont need to say this . ur not making it any easier :$
सध्या सगळेच जण अशाप्रकारचे blog लिहित आहात (आणि मला टेअन्शन देत अहात). आरे कहीही जाला तरी आपण सगळे आयुश्यभर एक्त्र राहणार अहोत. so dont worry amod n all. Ya but certainly We all had same experience. I can never forget PICT, friends, bunks, practs, INC room, Submissions …….. a long list. After a year we will be x-PICTans n wont be allowed to sit in the lectures and practicals (though now we can but we dont). Let us decide a date and we all will sit for a lecture. aur maze karenge, FOR LAST TIME.
Very nice blog dude, keep writing
(its quite difficult to type in marathi)
As gaurav said: “ur not making it any easier”.
This is all true …….. unfortunately
Wish we could all go back in time and _relive_ those moments.
You are making it difficult…not getting what to say but yes, as gaurya said TEARS…
).I think this comment will be appropriate after year’s time 
.so lets enjoy whatever is left.
Will always remember every bit spent over here(especially the INC time
BTW nice blog…keep on blogging ..will keep on commenting…
Well written
Time flies
Lets enjoy whatever time we have in hand!
@Gaurav : i know…
@Akshay : yeah…ek divas nakki sagle lok milun lecture la basu
@Swapnil : ho na…want to live it all over again !!
@Adya : Thanks.. yeah…i do plan to write regularly
@Mahesh :Yep…time sure does fly !!
haa…now that i’ve replied individually to all the comments, Thanks a lot guys
This was my first attempt at non-techie stuff
Why is everybody getting all senti from now itself about college ending? Damn you Amod…. I am depressed now
*likes* this. Great post!
@Shweta : …and this is just the beginning
@Sahil : Thanks
This one’s quite disturbing… With a feeling of going back to *that* time again, it also gives one a feeling of so much wanting to live the moment, the time that is left… These are the ‘Happy Days’ as they call it… Keep writing…
Amod,
It is really great to learn about your feelings from this blog. No matter how long you run in this race against time, you really want to stop at some moment and look back. Only to get afraid that beginnings seem lost beyond the horizon.
Don’t worry though bro. We usually put on a “mask of rationalism” to hide our feelings. But its better to vent it someday. We all share this feeling with you. And we will make sure it won’t end that soon.
Care,
Neer.
@Pratik : Yeah, its quite a disturbing feeling ..
@Neer : I completely agree with your comment
.. Nice one !
I only read half of the blog…I don’t want to read it further..It’s really touching[image]http://emoticons4u.com/sad/014.gif[/image]…and yes it is one of the most disturbing feeling i ever had. Believe me, the last day of our college is going to be the toughest day in my life.
But, the fact is we really have to move on in life……so all you guys,Don’t worry….there is always something better to come along ,even if we have to leave something best in our lives.
Have fun…there is still a lot of time for us. Let’s Enjoy…[:)]
Amod, Keep on writing. We are waiting for ur blogs.
and yes , I am writing this bunking the OS lecture…Let’s all decide one day to attend the college wearing our unique BE II T-shirt.
Yay, I found someone frm r clan on WordPress!
A very universal feeling..I remember..we had a “Summer of 2003″, but been there and done that, just want you and all ur 15 commenting frnds, that this is actually not the end..friends do stick by..new ones come in, life is not this carefree but once you are settled in, you get this fun back..you do..trust me..i rode atop a jeep in rain last weekend on a trip ..something i didnt even dare in my PICT days..you can have fun later and the best part is you are officailly out parental control
hey sorry for late comment
but Amod don’t think of end from now think of the time which
u have in ur hand and enjoy it to the fullest so that when u
look back this time u would never feel the sorrow of departure !!!
In the end it will surely happen but why to think of time which makes
us seek and unhappy … enjoy the time that we have in hand !!!